The second time I read this
book I was living in the Philippines
as a missionary. I had been praying that if God wanted to
change me, he would give me the desire to be willing to work at change in my
life again. He answered that prayer, and
once again, the Lord Changed me.
Yes, the two times I have read this book, God changed me. I am so thankful for the changes he has made in my life. I will trust him as I read this book once more in remembrance of Evelyn Christenson, the author, who is in heaven with Jesus today.
LORD CHANGE ME by Evelyn
Christenson
It was a cozy winter day in the small town of
Dear God,
How will you speak to me as
I begin reading this book? I want to be
listening, so please open my heart to hear your voice and obey. If there are changes that I need to make in
my life, please come quickly and show me. Thank you for what you are going to
do.
In Jesus Name, Amen.
As I sat there in the
quietness of the morning, I opened the pages of this book and began, yet
another, Journey of change.
It warmed my heart to read
the words that were familiar to me. Within an hour, I closed the book after the
very first chapter because God has spoken to my heart very clearly. In fact, he had been
preparing me for the changes that he wanted me to make in my life.
“That same June, I had more changes to make. (What a horrible month that was!”)
I discovered something new about myself—because my daughter told me.
I discovered something new about myself—because my daughter told me.
My heart ached as I read
this because in last six months or so I had been thinking the same thing about
my husband and children. Did they get
tired of me talking about my philosophy on serving God? If they did not feel the same way as I did, I
was sure it must have been annoying. My
heart attitude was not wrong for wanting them to love God with all of their
heart and to take time for him, but this is their choice.
God has even confirmed this
to me last night. My oldest son had come
to visit for my birthday. We enjoyed
some wonderful talk time as we often do.
I wanted to ask my son a very important question, it was, “When you
were young did I talk about God to much, and he replied, “Not when we were
young, but as we got older, maybe.” Ouch! God had confirmed that my children probably
felt the same way as Evelyn’s daughter had.
You know as a parent we
always want to save our children from going through the tough lessons of
life. If we can share from our
experiences and help them to skip a step in learning, we want to do this, but
is it what they really want? I guess
not.
Well, I have my work cut out
for me this year. I need to “Be still …
wait patiently for God to work.” It was
not my job to change anybody, but God is the one to make the changes.
It is incredible that the
very first chapter in this book is going to be one area where I need to change. It will be so hard to be still and quiet and
not share anything about the deepest passion in my heart, God, and our
relationship with him. If they ask my
opinion, it is ok to share it, but SILENCE must be my only word and prayer is
my only recourse.
Dear God,
Thank you for what you have
already shown me today. I am sorry if I
have been sharing my opinions too much.
Please silence my heart. This is
going to be real hard for me, but I will trust you to help me. Thank you for what you will teach me.
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