VERY EARLY NEW YEAR’S
morning of 1990 I was lying in bed praying for each child, grandchild, and my
husband, not only for a new year but for a new decade. I prayed for each one individually – for
specific needs and then for God to fill each with Himself. Then an overwhelming feeling swept over me
that I should release my whole family to God.
Released – not to just anybody—but to
God.
No, this is releasing them to the
omniscient God of the universe! He knows
the end from the beginning, knows all the ‘whys” and “what ifs” of our lives. He alone is capable—and worthy—to have us
entrust our human possessions to Him.
And in releasing prayers, a new realization
that they are HIS, not ours, emerges.
Honestly, the
thought that crossed my mind as I began to read this chapter was, “I will just
skip writing about this chapter.” I have
had to learn so much about releasing one of my children to God this past year
and the thought of releasing my whole family to God was a bit overwhelming.
Why would it
hard for me to release my whole family to God?
Releasing my
family is letting go and letting God.
This means not praying what I want for my husband and children, but
totally letting go and allowing God to make their lives what he has planned.
Isn’t this what
I have been doing all of their lives? “Why
is this so hard for me? I want God’s
plan for my family and I know he has a great plan for each of them. The hard part for me is that often it takes
pain and suffering to make us willing to follow God’s plan for lives. It is like I am praying for pain and
suffering to happen in their lives. It
has been a hard year, how could I possibly pray for more?
When I read Lord
Change Me for the first time, it was very challenging to let go and allow God
to change me. Change often hurts.
Then the second
time I read the book I understood reading it and following the challenges put
before me, could be hard. Yet, God had
been with me through it all and many wonderful changes happen within me. I needed to just trust God.
So do I avoid a possible
time of pain and suffering to bring about changes in my family, by not
praying? I have an amazing family, so
there might not be any hard times because of my prayers. BUT AM I WILLING TO LET GO AND LET GOD NOT
MATTER WHAT?
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